day six: fancy ticklers

Nine Inch Nails, when I'm down and when someone has been "collected" far too soon.
Trent Reznor understands.

jessica

It's incredible, you know, this life thing.
One moment you have it. You have everything. You're at the top.
And one moment later, death wraps its inevitable hold around you and there is nothing.
A girl one of my friends dated for years and years, his soulmate, passed away two days ago.
The first time I went to a bar (underage, of course), I went with her.
The first time I went dancing (of age), she was there.
Both times I saw Nine Inch Nails, and when I saw Tool, she was there.
We talked about makeup, about life, about careers.
She just graduated from McMaster for nursing and has a lovely job in a hospital.
She has amazing friends and a family who loves her.
She has a soulmate, even though they are no longer together.
And now all of what I just said can be put in the past tense.
At twenty-three, how is it possible that a girl who has everything and who is just beginning her life could leave us?
It makes me angry.
Angry with God, if there is a God.
Angry that I don't know the reason for her passing.
What is it supposed to teach us?
That if you're a good person and you have all that you need in your life, you're just bound to lose it all?
That it just hurts everyone you leave behind when you're gone?
But we need to remember her for the girl she was...
Jessica, you were and are the ray of sunshine in so many people's darkness.
You always had a smile to share and a kind word to say.
You will be dearly missed.
I know you're smiling on us from somewhere.
Until we meet again, I descend from grace in arms of undertow. I will take my place in the great below...

day five: favourite quote

This was a hard one. There are so many things that strike me as beautiful, or melancholy, or perfect. Just things that have been said in a way no one's said it before. It says something that you've felt or thought in such a precise, perfect way that you can't help but love it.
These are my favourites:

"We accept the love we think we deserve." - Perks

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell, for that brief moment, you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all of that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." - Kate Winslet as Iris in the Holiday

"We are intrepid. We carry on." -Kirstin Dunst as Claire Colburn in Elizabethtown

"These are hard times for dreamers." - Porn seller in Amelie

"Voici mon secret. Il est tres simple: on ne voit bien qu'avec le coeur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux."
Translation: "Here is my secret. It is very simple: it is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye." - The Little Prince

So it's totally sweet when someone you've been friends with for fifteen years refuses to go out with your group of friends who have not been completely reunited in two years because they're on "exam lockdown", but they can still find time to get completely 100% smashed at school on St. Patrick's Day, AND go out with all of their other friends. You don't really care if we come out with you; you're generally indifferent to us. But we'd love for you to come out with us, and you just don't care to.
I haven't seen you in months and yet you don't even care. That's great. Thanks so much.
I tell you when I'm home and you always make excuses. Just tell me you don't want to hang out with me. That's fine. I'd rather be told to go fuck myself than deal with your pseudo-sensitive "I'm so sorry" bullshit.
Grow up, tell us that you don't want to come instead of making excuses, and we'll be great.
You wonder why we don't try to hang out with you anymore?
Now you know.
Fuck it.

day four: favourite book

The Perks of Being A Wallflower
This book contains some of the greatest quotes I have ever had the privilege of reading.



"We accept the love we think we deserve."

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

day three: favourite tv show

Criminal Minds.

Notably because of this man:

Hotchner: This is Dr. Reid.
Man: Doctor? You seem to young to have gotten into Medical school...
Reid: There are PhD's. Three of them.
Man: Are you a genius or something?
Reid: I don't believe that intelligence can be accurately quantified, but I do have an IQ of 187, an eidetic memory, and can read 20,000 words per minute.
(Man gives him a weird look.)
Reid: Yes, I'm a genius.

day two: favourite song

Jack's Mannequin - Swim

You gotta swim. Swim for your life.
Swim for the music that saves you when you're not so sure you'll survive.
You gotta swim, and swim when it hurts.
The whole world is watching. You haven't come this far to fall off the earth.
The currents will pull you away from your love.
Just keep your head above.
I found a tidal wave begging to tear down the dawn.
Memories like bullets, they fire at me from a gun, cracking the armour, yeah.
I swim for brighter days despite the absence of sun.
Choking on salt water, I'm not giving in.
I swim.
You gotta swim through that nights that won't end.
Swim for your families, your lovers, your sisters and brothers and friends.
You gotta swim through wars without cause.
Swim for the lost politicians who don't see their greed as a flaw.
The currents will pull us away from our love.
Just keep our heads above.
I found a tidal wave begging to tear down the day.
Memories like bullets, they fire at me from a gun, cracking the armour, yeah.
I swim for brighter days, despite the absence of sun.
Choking on salt water, I'm not giving in.
Cause I swim.
You gotta swim.
Swim in the dark.
There's no shame in drifting, feel the tides shifting and wait for the spark.
You gotta swim.
Don't let yourself sink.
Just find the horizon, I promise you it's not as far as you think.
The currents will pull us away from our love...
Just keep your head above.
Just keep your head above, swim.
Just keep your head above, swim.
Yeah, swim.
Yeah, swim.